......jealousy


the tears roll down my cheeks as i think about the past
knowing someone held you before me someone heard you tell them you loved them
knowing you thought you found the one before you found me
the pain of knowing you held someone before you held me
you kissed them before me
the thoughts race through my head and tears flood my face like a broken dam
the jealousy kills me
knowing you were in love before
i try to block it out but it gets stronger every second
i curl up tight wishing to end this knowing you're my only cure but also knowing your heart once lay with another man
knowing you cherished another
the jealousy kills me i wish i wasn't this way but all i can do is cry thinking about the past

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[ i lay staring into your eyes lost in awe of your beauty ]

i lay staring into your eyes lost in awe of your beauty
i stare into those brown eyes seeing my future unfolding before me
i close my eyes and let out a small cry of joy as i open them and you're still laying there staring with your beautiful smile
we hold each other tight and i whisper "yours forever dearest one" and smile and you put your hand on top of mine and whisper "thank you"
i kiss you softly and feel the sweet rush of love from your lips
we are wrapped up in our plans of our perfect happy ever after
i feel the salty sweet tear of joy roll down my cheek as i'm overwhelmed with happiness
i hold the world in my arms running one hand through your long brown hair
my heart beats your name and beats even faster as you lean forward for a kiss
then i lose my breath as our lips touch
i mumble "my lover"
and you mumble "always" and i smile as your cheeks turn rosy crimson

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your guardian angel

i pick up the phone my heart is racing my palms are sweating and i don't know what to do
you're the perfect girl the perfect angel and i love u so
i hear your voice and freak out with joy letting my love flow out
you give me a high you make me so happy i wanna cry my emotions over flow and i just wanna shout
you're the best thing to ever happen to me you're the only person to give me such glee
you'ry my anael my venus my heart my joy my life my love
you're everything i ever wanted and everything i'll ever need
i'll promise to love and care for you and never do you wrong my baby girl
i'll always protect you and never forsake you
i've never felt this feeling before my whole body is tingling so could this be love
i drop to my knees and thank the Lord each and every day for sending me to you as your guardian angel
i'll wrap my arms around you and will let no harm come to you you're my girl and my love
come to me to always feel safe come to me to always get away
i'll always be here for you my love i'll always be your guardian angel
so baby rest your head on my chest and fall asleep no one will harm you while you're in my arms
i'll kiss your forehead and whisper my love into your ear
i'll stroke your hair and hold you tight
i'll be here in the morning waiting for my beautiful angel to wake up