Here in this lonely little hospital room, my life is falling
My family calling
And I am crawling away from it.
My grandfather dead
A truck crushed his head
And his friend behind the wheel, didn't see him behind her
I scream inside
This can't be real
He's the strong one, the faithful one
He holds us together
But now he's gone, and we all fall apart.
My cousin is sobbing wildly,
Face red
Eyes wide
And she just can't realize-
It's true,
He's dead?
His body is broken, but his soul is set free.....
But what about
me?
I can already feel the grief being locked away
I move through the throng of my family today
I wipe away tears,
But I won't shed my own
I comforted others
But tonight, I'm alone.
Here tonight, my life is falling
My friends I'm calling
But they can't help.
No one can save me, because I can't save myself
I have to pull through this
I won't live in hell
I won't drown in sadness
I won't forget his life
I won't give in to madness
And I won't blame this poor woman
Who killed her dear friend
It was just an accident...
There will be no blame sent,
Not from me. Not today.
No, because right now, I'm away
I'm in my shower
Hot water steaming
It muffles my screaming
and I cry out to God
WHY? Why did this happen?
He held us together, now we all fall apart
And the sorrow is building
It's breaking my heart
I can't do this alone, won't someone help me?
Can't anyone realize, I'm not strong as I seem
Though I'm comforting others, I need a hug too.
But until I can ask for one,
I'll be eternally
weaker

than

you.